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So... I just started with a new D&D campaign. My first time at D&D but not at tabletop rpg's so went in and it wasn't as role-play heavy as I was used to. So I did a write-up on Qamar (my raven/black throated magpie jay hybrid) and her reaction to this whole, yes, lets go in the hole and the ground and explore, idea that the company had.  It entertained me, so I thought it may entertain others. Or ya'know, I should at least put it somewhere for posterity.

Feels a bit gratuitous, but I like her and my little storyCollapse )
04 January 2014 @ 12:40 pm
b/c why not

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02 January 2014 @ 11:11 am
Oh hai there new year! I was pretty MIA for the past two months because my schedule was packed ridiculously full.  I spent about a month and a half laying out my new art book (Yay!!) that should release at FC this year.  It took Waaaaay longer than it should have because, a) I hadn't used InDesign in years and was rusty b) I hadn't done Layout in years and was rusty and c) I waited to ask for help for far too bloody long.  So then we had to fix a lot of things that I didn't think about/remember/realize there were better ways to do things. Luckily I have KIND Art Director and Designer friends who were willing to help me and now the book looks pretty damn sharp if I do say so myself.  At least it does all laid out and on paper... we'll see what happens when it prints *fingers crossed* As that started wrapping up I had three 12x16 pieces that I needed to get finished up (secretly) for Christmas, so hauled ass getting those done. I got them to the commissioner the night of Christmas Eve, and then Christmas night I flew down to Texas for a week with the family.  It's been lovely, but crazy busy, and gosh am I ready to get back home and just do some art for a while. Granted I still have some looming deadlines that are making me itchy to get painting now, but it shouldn't be as bad as the past two months.

I hope you all had some lovely holidays and have an amazing new year!
19 November 2013 @ 12:57 pm
So I got an IUD put in yesterday.
Two words. OW! and GRATEFUL!

"Ow" because, yeah. Ow... painful process to get the sucker put in, dunno how long it actually lasted, felt like around 5 minutes, but think it wasn't nearly that long.  Made my uterus turn into some nasty alien scraping and scrambling at my pelvis for a few hours, and made my joints achy and terrible, and my back all tight and spasm-y, but that's mostly settled down today.  Just achy back and cramps today. So... hopefully will all be uphill from here!

"Grateful" for two reasons, one, for the Arch Foundation for making it affordable for people on low income like myself. And two, and most importantly for my two dear friends who came with me to hold my hands and keep me from totally freaking myself out.  Feel free to identify yourself if you like, didn't know if you wanted to be called out. But gosh I'm thankful to you both. For being there for me for hand holding. For bringing of food, for driving, for everything. It made me feel like it was all going to be okay. That I had support if something went wrong. That I wasn't alone. Which is terribly terribly important. So thank you so much. You know who you are, and know that you made what could have been a sad, painful day feeling sorry for myself into a wonderful day in spite of 5 minutes of horrid pain and a few hours of extreme discomfort and pretty strong pain.

And all my friends out there on the internet. Thank you all for being my friends. I appreciate you all.

Hehehe, also realized that this is possibly a TMI and its Tuesday. So its the right day for that according to the internet.
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11 November 2013 @ 06:12 pm
Stolen from kazeno_taka corvus_animus who stole it from charreed and nambroth so fine I'll do it too :|

1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged?

2. You talked to an ex today, correct?

3. Have you taken someones virginity?
Taken? Really? It's not a thing you take.

4. Is trust a big issue for you?

5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently?
One of them >< I have a few people I like right now... and very few of them are likely to come to any sort of fruition (for lack of a better word)

6. What are you excited for?

7. What happened tonight?
Art book layout while Doctor Who was on.

8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted?
I agree with Jenn - why does it matter if it's a girl?  I personally find it hilarious when people get drunk, as long as they're not spewing body fluids or being an asshole.

9. Is confidence cute?
Confidence is amazing.  Puppies are cute. (stolen wholesale from Brenda)

10. What is the last beverage you had?
Fizzy Water

11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?
ummm... one second, Wow, after counting, more than ten. huh, think its like 13. Wow. That was unexpected.

12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans?
yep, two as a matter of fact. Perfect for cons/dress nights out/wearing with BOOTS! I <3 my big stompy boots.

13. What are you gonna do Saturday night?
Layout book. Sort studio. Forever I think...

14. What are you going to spend money on next?
ummm groceries probably?

15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed?

16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months?
almost certainly in minor ways, in major ways? Doubtful, but possible

17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?
Various friends, they know who they are! (stealing from Brenda again)

18. The last time you felt broken?
most of this week... its been downright awful unfortunately.

19. Have you had sex today?
No *sighs*

20. Are you starting to realize anything?
? About what? Life, the Universe, and Everything? I dunno man? I don't get this question.

21. Are you in a good mood?
meh, not bad

22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks?
nurse sharks, sure, or non-violent sharks, but big proper sharks... dunno?

23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s?
slightly more hazel/gold but mostly the same brown

24. What do you want right this second?
More time in a day O.o

25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy?
I'd be pissed... dunno what I'd say? Goodbye maybe?

26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color?
Partly, with carmelly/blond highlights.

27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh?
umm doubt it?

28. What was the last thing that made you laugh?
My friends string of comments that said this
"wtf gtfo"
"The shock has loosened my vowels"

29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now?
yep, quite a few people actually

30. Does everyone deserve a second chance?
some people yes... others not so much

31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to?
NO! My roommate is awesome.

32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do?
umm one of them does, the other... dunno?

33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda?
pretty much yeah. I'll periodically grab a sip and immediately regret it *gross* used to love them though

34. Listening to?
Doctor Who!

35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore?
yep! I prefer writing in traditional media

36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is?
probably at home? no idea, its my ex?

37. Do you believe in love at first sight?

38. Who did you last call?
a friend about a billing miscommunication

39. Who was the last person you danced with?

40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?
Because we were dating at the time?

41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake?
don't know. And that makes me sad

42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today?
they live 12 hours away by car... so no...

43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush?
All the time. I embarrass myself on a regular basis in front of plenty of people

44. Do you tan in the nude?
Sort of?  I used to lay out on my parents deck occasionally... I am solar powered. It recharges me to lay in the sun for 10-15 min, so if I have the space to do it  (and privacy) I'll take advantage of it.

45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss?

46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night?

47. Who was the last person to call you?

48. Do you sing in the shower?
Yep, often.

49. Do you dance in the car?
All the bloody time

50. Ever used a bow and arrow?

51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?
either for my license or in college by a friend who was a photographer

52. Do you think musicals are cheesy?
they are good and fun, but yes, often also cheesy

53. Is Christmas stressful?
has been since my parents split

54. Ever eat a pierogi?
yeppers but not often

55. Favorite type of fruit pie?
strawberry rhubarb!

56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?
artist or vet

57. Do you believe in ghosts?
yep, though no personal experience

58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?

59. Take a vitamin daily?

60. Wear slippers?
yes. I am cold all the time forever. Especially my feet and fingers. Unfortunately they are slipper and thus I've also fallen down the stairs in them.

61. Wear a bath robe?

62. What do you wear to bed?
pjs and a shirt, or just a shirt and undies...

63. First concert?
Edgefest I think? Or Fair to Midland?

64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?
Target - not that I go to any of them with any type of regularity and despise wal-mart

65. Nike or Adidas?
whatever fits

66. Cheetos Or Fritos?
Cheeto Poofs!

67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?
eh... probably sunflowers, in the car, to keep me awake... don't eat either other than that.

68. Favorite Taylor Swift song?
no idea? So lets go with favorite MUSE song because I love MUSE... Oh wait, I can't pick...

69. Ever take dance lessons?
yep, greek, irish, ballet as a kindergartener, and swing

70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?
whatever makes him happy

71. Can you curl your tongue?

72. Ever won a spelling bee?
nope. good at spelling but never won

73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy?
don't think so

74. What is your favorite book?
urrrrrr... too many favorites. Ummm a list! Anything by Mercedes Lackey or Brom or Neil Gaiman or Patricia McKillip or James Gurney or... maybe I should stop now?

75. Do you study better with or without music?
with. If I'm writing it has to not have English lyrics, other than that words are fine

76. Regularly burn incense?

77. Ever been in love?
yes indeed

78. Who would you like to see in concert?
MUSE again and always. Blue October. A Fine Frenzy. Garfunkel and Oates.

79. What was the last concert you saw?
Paul and Storm last night because Dave's friend bailed on him

80. Hot tea or cold tea?

81. Tea or coffee?
TEA! Although a perfectly balanced cappuccino is lovely

82. Favorite type of cookie?
snickerdoodle? Or pumpkin chocolate chip

83. Can you swim well?
yes indeed

84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?

85. Are you patient?
to a certain extent... but when that goes it goes fast

86. DJ or band, at a wedding?
depends? No idea really

87. Ever won a contest?

88. Ever have plastic surgery?

89. Which are better black or green olives?
black - kalamata are awesome

90. Opinions on sex before marriage?
do what you want. Your sex life is your own. As long as it is safe and consensual I don't care.

91. Best room for a fireplace?
Bedroom? Living Room? Bathroom? I dunno, I like them always

92. Do you want to get married?
19 October 2013 @ 08:54 am
So trying to do both my RF and my AFC write-ups in this post, because I hadn't gotten to RF yet.

Rainfurrest continues to be one of my favorite conventions.  Its just the right size, the people are fantastic, and the food is always stellar (okay, okay maybe thats just that Seattle has good food and I've found some real gems but FOOD man.  That stuff is important.)  So this year I flew in on Thursday, and the wonderful, noble, heroic, Davecko *grinz* helped me haul my luggage from the airport to the hotel... I'm stubborn and probably would have tried to haul it all over there myself otherwise, which probably wouldn't have ended terribly well ><. I need to learn from this, and know that if someone can't help me next year, I need to call a cab. After weighing all my luggage I realize that it outstrips my own weight by, well, quite a bit.  In any case, he helped me get my luggage over to the con, I setup, and then went to dinner with that awesome fellow and his friends, and I am in fact AWFUL with names... so... I'm sorry for not calling you all out individually *sorrrrry*. (Also, I got furry and real names and that just means I am twice as likely to forget)

Con went great for the next few days, pretty productive and I limited my commissions so ended up being able to do a good amount of socializing every evening, which was lovely!  Hung out with the ever awesome, Kit, Kyell, Kenket, Teagan, FoxAmoore, Vantid, Xyk, Davecko, Jack, Path, and more... again, horrid with remembering names so if I forgot yours, my most sincere apologies, you know you are loved, and appreciated, and that my mental filing system is just horrid.
After the Con I spent a couple days just outside of Seattle proper with a friend who I hadn't seen in a few years, which was lovely. Had the best sushi I've had in my life, saw harbor seals, and sea lions, and wandered about Seattle a bit, but mostly hung out with her, (introduced her to Doctor Who, because thats what I do) and caught up on all of our crazy life gossip.

Then I came home for 2 days, and my dad got into town, so I promptly went up to Frisco with him and his girlfriend. Unfortunately, due to Frontier Airlines horrid screwups, he got here 8 hours late, so I only got 2 days with him, but we had a lovely time.  Did a few light hikes, wandered around cute little mountain towns, and generally enjoyed each others company.

Two days after that I started my road trip to AFC with my dear friend Liz.  First day was just a pounding of road beneath our wheels. Fourteen hours of driving later (all me, she doesn't drive stick) we hit the hotel, punch drunk and still silly happy with each other.  Met with the guest liaison Arielle (who is a wonderful human being and was terribly helpful all weekend), got shown our room and around the hotel, setup in the dealers room and then settled in for what was to be a gorgeous weekend.  The weather was a bit hot for my tastes, but then I'm spoiled by Colorado.  The view was exquisite though, looking out over a golf course with the mountains behind that and the huge dark desert sky above us.  This con is the first (to my knowledge) to give dealers a lunch break, which just made it that much more awesome in my book. The fact that we, as dealers and guests, could retreat for an hour or two to our rooms. Collect our thoughts, and recharge afternoon was invaluable. I absolutely loved that!
I continued my tradition from Rainfurrest and strictly limited conventions to allow for socialization, and it worked out so well. I actually had a chance to enjoy my evenings with my friends.  Hung out with such wonderful people as Myenia, Rukis, Liz, Fuzzwolf, Teiran, and more.

On our way back we didn't do the crazy long haul of the first trip.  Stopped for a picnic lunch detour at an offshoot of the Grand Canyon (didn't got to the Canyon proper, b/c it was quite a bit further, but even our little offshoot was glorious).  We had gotten a rather late start, but made it to Moab by evening, where we found a place to pitch a tent (ended up in an RV park which isn't as nice as proper campgrounds but DID have a hot tub, so bonus points).  The next morning we had adventures in Arches National Park.  We were up and out by 8 and got to Arches by 9:30 or so and it was everything I could have wished for.  Liz and I both hoped to go there to get a good solid center spiritually (yes, sounds flaky but having that quiet outdoor time is important to both of us, and our lives have been pretty tumultuous recently so it was soothing to our souls to just sit and enjoy that exquisite piece of nature).  Luckily the day before our arrival Utah opened its national parks with state funds, so we were able to make it in, and there were hardly any people there. Only about 12 of us or so at Delicate Arch, and we had lots of time to just sit quietly, to enjoy, to take it all in.  We picnicked at the 'Windows' area, and then started our stuttered trip back home.  That night was spent with Liz's family in Grand Junction, and the next morning puttered our way from a diner, to a winery, through Georgetown to one of our favorite restaurants in Colorado, then back home.

So I've been home for a couple days now and am about to leave again (Wednesday) for another week.  I'll sure be glad to be home for a while after this next trip, and am hoping I will be, but I just got news that my grandmother is in rather poor health, so I may be making a trip to Philly to see her. *urf*

I have a whole 'nother post I want to write later about centering and such but thats for later, I think this is more than enough for now.
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03 October 2013 @ 10:38 am
For no reason other than a brief glimpse of a piece of art (that I can't find) inspired me to a brief look into another world, where this was happening. And then the door shut... I don't know what else happens, but I thought it was interesting enough to write down...

She saw the bird fall. A limp gray rag, tumbling from the sky. The rain making colors smear into gray and shapes lose their edges in the blur of water drops. Tears streamed down her young face as she whispered to herself, small prayers of well wishing, the murmering of sorrows to the sky. She knew about death. She knew the family needed to eat. But every life tore a bit at her fragile soul, ripping through the cobwebs of her heart.

The cornfield was a salt-less sea, and she stood, swaying, at its prow. Silent vigil, a small stone mourner of the death that had blown by. Her mind bent under the pressure of the small feathered form lying heavy on the ground. Heavy in her heart. The mud splattered feathers, the tiny crater in the mud caused by the plummeting body leaving its last impression on the earth.
Current Mood: weirdweird
It's odd. I wrote this huge long post and couldn't put it up. Because of this odd body shaming that I've had happen. I'm in this strange paradox right now, where I feel pretty confident about how I look (in general) but also have these huge shame issues attached to my body in certain regards, and when I've mentioned them I've been shot down as 'not knowing how bad people with real body issues have it'. So... I don't know. Strange uncomfortable feelings about blogging about them. So instead I'm just gonna say, guys. Don't make fun of people or say their body image issues aren't real or aren't good enough because other peoples are worse. Then it just makes them not want to talk about it at all. *cough* yeah.. so things.  And no it hasn't really been the LJ community, you peeps on my friendslist, so don't worry about that... not trying to put any of you down, just kind of sending a reminder out to the world at large through the crazy-vibes of the internets...

So... the next four months are gonna be flat out crazy.
Gone Thurs-Wed for Rainfurrest and spend an extra 2 days there to see a friend.
Dad arrives Fri with his GF and we go out to Silverthorne for 3 days
Leaves Monday
I leave Thursday morning for ArizonaFurCon
Back Wednesday
Spend a WEEK at home thank goodness
Leave for a week

So... yeah... dunno how much I'll be around here.
Also, yay fall! 
21 September 2013 @ 09:29 am
I appreciate you all. I love you all, for following me, for supporting me, for commenting, for generally just being there. So hey there internet would you be interested in random things?  I kept meaning to post this and then, well, life, it gets in the way, also, this started going around right before I left for Greece so I was CRAZYFACE busy...  Quoting Nam here, because to lazy to turn it into my own post and it completely describes me and why I appreciate you all and, well, everything...

"Hello everyone. I appreciate you. I notice you and think you are cool. I cannot possibly show this to each of you the way I want to, but perhaps from time to time I can show some of you, as I'm able.
Maybe I see you are having a hard time, and a tiny bit of cheer in the mail will help a little bit.
Maybe I see you have done something that touches my heart and I want to show you that I appreciated that.
Maybe I'm just random as hell.

With all that said, anyone that might like a random little treat in the mail from time to time, please leave your complete mailing address in a comment below. Comments are screened. If you do not want to leave it below, feel free to comment saying "I will email you my address" and then feel free to do so (please, just do comment, so I have a record of it in one place).
Randomly, when I am able, I will send tiny treats in the mail. Maybe only one person per month or one every few months. It could be art, jewelry, a simple letter, a postcard of my chickens, a little print... just simple little things to brighten your day.

I cannot promise anything, as sometimes I find myself running on financial fumes.
I cannot promise when or if this will happen.
I cannot promise you will love what I send (but I won't send junk).
Please understand that items sent internationally will be, by necessity, small and light. International shipping is scary expensive now.
Please, if you sign up and don't get anything for a while, don't be upset. It does not indicate how much I like you. It doesn't mean I ignore you. I just am limited in my resources at times.
Please do not feel greedy or guilty for signing up. I do not see it as a 'grab for stuff'! This is meant to just be... cheerful. No strings, no worries.

Feel free to post a similar thing in your journal!"